Changeling

I'm back!! 2012 has arrived and I feel it's going to be my year!!! Just started with a new job that I absolutely love... met a Mr. who is dropping all of my walls with no struggle and keeping his patience with me. I'm re-evaluating my friend list, but that's a necessary adjustment all in all. I have zero time to let anyone hold me back and I am making big changes for life!! :) Really working on my fitness this year, but making it a quiet, private mission. I've found that the more I pushed it and talked about it, I was failing hardcore. 

I am a million times excited for some new lives to be welcomed this year.. My bestie Brenda is due in July and her sister in August stoked for that one.. and of course Sweetheart Jenn Jenn is tying the knot this summer.. gotta look slammin' in a dress :) I'm ready for every bit of 2012.. bring it on!! :)

Movie Title Quote:  Because once you give people the freedom to do whatever they want, as the Lord found in the Garden of Eden, they will do exactly that.

Little Black Book...

The woes of dating had me thinking a hault was necessary.. especially with the many bozos I've encountered :) But I've kept up with it, "can't assume every guy is the same" and like Jenn-Jenn said, "gotta kiss a few frogs to find my prince". Not that finding my Soulmate is top notch on my to-do list I just haven't dismissed it completely :) Nonetheless, I've met a couple of awesome beaus.. one I'm keeping a guard up on because I think there might be some sparkle left with his old time gal. That circumstance I'm all too familiar with myself. :) But he is super awesome.. every time we hang out it's fun and laughter, compliments galore but not the annoying over done type :) So we'll just wait and see what happens here, no expectations just fun and friendship... (FYI can't wait to see CrazyStupidLove July 29th.. Jenn, let's plan a ladies movie night :)) Guy #2, he's funny, fun and less of party animal which I definitely need in my life, down for adventure that doesn't include bar hopping!! Which is more of what I'm leaning to.. but I am a magnet for unavailable men.. So as guy #1 may still have a strong connection with his old girl, Guy#2 couldn't be more unavailable for me.. but he still makes time and adores my company and I his so I'm living in the moment....

As for my move, it will be just a temporary vacation.. Arizona is so HOTTT!! lol.. I love summer but not a fan of Hell Fire!! lol So a temporary vacation with great company, my family, is necessary and I can clear my head a bit and not focus so much on anything but me!! :) My spirit is a million times sweeter and I'm looking forward to a better me!!

Movie Title Quote: (Love this one!!!!)
"I Believe we write out own stories and each time we think we know the end, we dont. Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance, and from the peace that comes from knowing, that you just can't know it all. life's funny that way once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong"

The Wedding Planner...

So it's been quite a bit since I've posted anything, and anything positive for that matter has been difficult to think of, so I figured waiting till greatness came to mind or happened would make it all the better :)
A couple of weeks ago was Wedding #2 and what a success it was :) My longtime friend married his longtime girl and they make the perfect pair!!! :) I grew up with Georgie, his mother is my momma's best friend from high school. We've been through everything and I couldn't imagine not being a part of his biggest and special day :) I had the honor of coordinating their reception. I think I was asked more because I'm a bossy bitch but nevertheless I was honored all the same :) The venue was a rec. center with a stage and a big auditorium. It had to be huge, we had over 300 guests. I show to the venue after the long Mass at St. Edwards just to make sure all of the vendors were in line and the table settings, dance floor, etc. were in tip top shape. Biggest crush on the DJ by the way:) but I'll get to that later... 3 hours between ceremony and reception left plenty of time for the vendors to set up.. or one would think.. the tables weren't lined up right so I had to do some relocating.. The linens were not on all of the tables and chairs and by the time it hit 2:30- 3pm (mind u I'm expecting the guests to start arriving at 330) There were no glasses or silver on the table as they should have been. So I had to get my hands dirty and help the help!! Thank goodness my sisters were there to help me.. I couldn't imagine the bride and groom showing up with nothing done. After everything and a bit of sweat, the tables were set, food was assembled, champagne was coming and guests were arriving. It was a success!!! The bride looked amazing and my good friend was a handsome groom!! The DJ was awesome.. he helped so much with the coordination of all of the formalities, Father daughter dance, Mother Son dance, bouquet toss, Group photo... everything and the music was awesome.. We exchanged #s at the end of the night!! lol.. couldn't help myself :) Needless to say, I got $200 for the night!! It was fun and something I may look into as far as party planning and wedding coordinating.. I know a lot of vendors for inexpensive costs and great work :)

The Bride and her father in law :)

My sisters, bro & bro-in-law with the best man!! My other closest friend :)

The Groom & myself

My Momma & I

The Villa/Montero Tribe- :) My sisters & bros <3

The Bride & Groom

The Groom & his mother :)

Movie title quote:
"You know the expression. Those who don't do, teach? Well those who don't wed, plan!"

A Cinderella Story....

Only there is definitely no prince charming or happily ever after.. there is however a mention of shoes!! LOL

Disaster Date #2 last night, actually it went really well until the end of the night but listen in on this :).. Mr has been asking me out for a long time now and I finally gave in to his persistance. No complaints, we had dinner, conversation was great he's super funny and fun. We went to the Casino for some drinks and dancing another fun adventure.. this man has no shame and his character intrigues me :) We had a great time and made a new friend :) She was however older than my momma but a sweetheart all of the same. I decided an early night was a good idea, had to spend time with my Poppa today for Father's Day. :) So I paid my $13.00 tab.. woo-woo.. he wouldn't let me pay for anything.. so while he was cutting the rug with the old gal.. i bought a shot for me and another drink for him all in gratitude and appreciation for the great night I was having :) My truck was parked at his casa so we had to go back to pick it up.. apparently the truck he took me in wasn't his it was his sister's the house we were at wasn't his either so needless to say, when we pulled up, she wanted to meet me. Sweetest little thing I have ever seen, met her and her husband and then said my goodbyes. I wanted to go home but we stood out talking for a while, he's actually a really good kisser and it was the end to a great night...until..... dun-du-du-dunnnnn.... freeze-frame, I'm inside his house now or I don't even know.. He told me he had a roommate... I politely left my shoes at the front door, avoiding clicking and messing any carpet up (it was the nice thing to do) we were in his house but a second when I heard a woman's voice English and Spanish..his Mother!!! She shouted through the closed door asking if I was his soon to be ex-wife and saying that she wanted to see my face, because "Wifey(don't want to give names) wouldn't wear 'HOOKER HEELS'" OMG.. did i want to kill her and him for that matter!! I had him open the door, asked for my 'hooker heels' which where now in his mother's hand as she was shouting at me I apologized and explained briefly between shouts that her son had lied to me.. didn't work out, she kept calling me names so as I was walking out the front door I said some derogatory words to both him and her as he followed me out to my truck apologizing like crazy.. I pushed him away from my door and peaced out as quick as I could!!! Never been humiliated worse in all of my life!! I LOVE MY HOOKER HEELS!! LOL... SAFE to say STRIKE 2 IN THE DATING AT BATS :)!! lol or as Jenn Jenn said.. gotta kiss a few frogs before I meet my prince charming :)

Movie title quote:

"Don't let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game"

The Break Up....

This blog was hit or miss, it was either going to be happy or a bummy one.. looks like sorrow won this battle :(
So the man I thought my world would turn right-side up for just showed his true colors. Just as I thought he would... I knew it was going to happen tonight.. I think I was just hoping for better results :( There is no guard, no wall nor front.. I don't love randomly, he had my heart, I had given it to him a long time ago and never got it back fully... Our truths and stories gave us strength and kept us friends with questions on each end asking if it could be anything more and today was dooms day!!! To quote a totally different movie, the rest of my life's beginning will start with the following misery:

"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible.  And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, they will eventually begin to fade."

So I'm off, when this lay-off happens at work.. I'm going far, far away.. Arizona actually, I need to try something totally new. My motivation is pointless here and all I turn to is alcohol with my party friends and if you read my last blog I need to quit with it. Bad decisions come from poor drinking habits. :( Forgive this bummed and short blog, I'm just not feeling up to the discussion as I thought I would have been.

My Best Friend's Wedding...

From the Bachelorette Party to the big day, it was a celebration all around!!! :)

She was absolutely beautiful!!!! My best friend married the best man!!! :) Saturday was the wedding I had been anxious for and it was as fun as I had expected it to be. Some say weddings make you think twice about settling down and getting "family" ready. That couldn't be more true.. I celebrated with some excellent friends but couldn't help to be a little envious of the whole "married forever/ in love" vibe. Could I be changing my untameable ways?? lol.. One thing is for sure.. my drinking habits have now been put to a major hault!! #1 because I'm heavier than ever and the bridesmaid dress didn't help at all..lol and I didn't really start drinking until after all of the major wedding rituals but I paid heavily for it Sunday and Monday :( Beezy seemed happy with everything so I didn't have to regulate on any mis-steps of any of the vendors. It was an all around beautiful wedding and I couldn't be happier for the Vargas pair or make it the Vargas three plus Jaxon :)

Vegas Bachelorette Party

   The Happy Couple

Shots in Celebration :)

Movie Title Quote:  this one is for me of that night :)

"maybe there won't be marriage, maybe there won't be sex, but by God...there will be dancing"

John Tucker Must Die...

Went on the date from Hell... I met the dude in my office he was selling rubber stopper thingys, I really don't remember what he was selling I just know it was rubber. :) He was too cute and stayed for about an hour just chitt-chatting with me :) He was funny, single, no kids and independent (meaning: not living with momma). A man at 28 one would hope so :) He also had single friends, which was a plus and a half because I have single friends "so call ur friends to get with my friends and we could be friends" lol.. needed some comedy in this Post!! lol  Anyway, like I said many times before I have the biggest problem giving my number out, so when he asked, I gave it to him, plus he was cute and I didn't mind a call from him at all.. :) He was also real quick to ask me out, I couldn't go out that night so he switched his plans for the next night and asked to take me to dinner. I was immediately taken back when he so bluntly picked the restaurant and said he was picking me up.. For starters, I always drive myself on first dates.. (just incase I need to escape quickly) but for some reason I decided to let my guard down and say ok. As for the restaurant, he didn't even ask if I liked sushi or didn't even give me to option to pick a place. I'm so used to the control I was totally hesitant, but I agreed. (I love sushi BTW) Now the date...

He was grouchy when he arrived.. I guess some lady cut him off on his way over and he just kept harping over it.. which made the ride and initial hello awkward. We get to the restaurant and I had been there before with my bestie and liked it so it was cool.. J I recommend it!! tons of CUTE MEN It’s called Mikan off of Pearl in Redlands… look it up.. they have a cool nightlife lounge two story restaurant J Anyway, he was dressed super formal for a date.. he had on slacks, a black  button up and dress shoes… very clean and he looked wedding ready..LMAO.. it was too much for sushi, but to each their own.  I had dark jeans, a scoop neck top and my white military jacket on with curly hair and my new shoes.. I looked good damn it!! LOL  He didn’t seem to think so and he made it known… the ass said that my outfit was cute and very trendy but that my shirt may have been a bit too low cut… They’re called BOOBS!!! Apparently he’s never seen them before and expects his “WOMAN” (and he used this term a lot throughout the date) to wear hijabs and burqas.. lol.. but really "who the hell does he think he is".. (and I used that phrase often throughout this bogusness) Food was good.. conversation sucked, and he kept bringing up his ex and the reasons they weren’t together anymore… really?? Oh and it was all her fault.. I’m sure “Hitler” had nothing to do with it. I couldn’t stand his arrogance and he had anger issues.. it was a total warp from when he was in the office talking to me.. or maybe I had just been more mesmerized by his smile and didn’t notice his douchebag tendencies then. Either way.. I ended the date with a “are you kidding me? This is the worst date I’ve ever been on, you are a douchebag, if this act is serious, and I wish you luck but this date is over.” He paid the tab (thank God I didn’t get stuck with the bill again) and apologized and asked if could make it up to me?? I said thanks for dinner, but no thanks. I’ll get a ride home. And my friend came to my rescue as always!! J… When a date is so bad that you are facebooking mid conversation, there is definitely a problem!! Needless to say, I may be done with dating for a while.. too many dumb-dumbs, not enough energy!! lol

Movie Title Quote: (you get 2 today because this blog is worth it :))

for him:

"I'd hit him with my car if he wouldn't make body casts a fashion statement."

for me:

"I wish it could just be simple, like a retro-pop song 'I want you to want me.' Boom. End of Story. We all live happily ever after. But its never really like that, is it?"