A Cinderella Story....

Only there is definitely no prince charming or happily ever after.. there is however a mention of shoes!! LOL

Disaster Date #2 last night, actually it went really well until the end of the night but listen in on this :).. Mr has been asking me out for a long time now and I finally gave in to his persistance. No complaints, we had dinner, conversation was great he's super funny and fun. We went to the Casino for some drinks and dancing another fun adventure.. this man has no shame and his character intrigues me :) We had a great time and made a new friend :) She was however older than my momma but a sweetheart all of the same. I decided an early night was a good idea, had to spend time with my Poppa today for Father's Day. :) So I paid my $13.00 tab.. woo-woo.. he wouldn't let me pay for anything.. so while he was cutting the rug with the old gal.. i bought a shot for me and another drink for him all in gratitude and appreciation for the great night I was having :) My truck was parked at his casa so we had to go back to pick it up.. apparently the truck he took me in wasn't his it was his sister's the house we were at wasn't his either so needless to say, when we pulled up, she wanted to meet me. Sweetest little thing I have ever seen, met her and her husband and then said my goodbyes. I wanted to go home but we stood out talking for a while, he's actually a really good kisser and it was the end to a great night...until..... dun-du-du-dunnnnn.... freeze-frame, I'm inside his house now or I don't even know.. He told me he had a roommate... I politely left my shoes at the front door, avoiding clicking and messing any carpet up (it was the nice thing to do) we were in his house but a second when I heard a woman's voice English and Spanish..his Mother!!! She shouted through the closed door asking if I was his soon to be ex-wife and saying that she wanted to see my face, because "Wifey(don't want to give names) wouldn't wear 'HOOKER HEELS'" OMG.. did i want to kill her and him for that matter!! I had him open the door, asked for my 'hooker heels' which where now in his mother's hand as she was shouting at me I apologized and explained briefly between shouts that her son had lied to me.. didn't work out, she kept calling me names so as I was walking out the front door I said some derogatory words to both him and her as he followed me out to my truck apologizing like crazy.. I pushed him away from my door and peaced out as quick as I could!!! Never been humiliated worse in all of my life!! I LOVE MY HOOKER HEELS!! LOL... SAFE to say STRIKE 2 IN THE DATING AT BATS :)!! lol or as Jenn Jenn said.. gotta kiss a few frogs before I meet my prince charming :)

Movie title quote:

"Don't let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game"

The Break Up....

This blog was hit or miss, it was either going to be happy or a bummy one.. looks like sorrow won this battle :(
So the man I thought my world would turn right-side up for just showed his true colors. Just as I thought he would... I knew it was going to happen tonight.. I think I was just hoping for better results :( There is no guard, no wall nor front.. I don't love randomly, he had my heart, I had given it to him a long time ago and never got it back fully... Our truths and stories gave us strength and kept us friends with questions on each end asking if it could be anything more and today was dooms day!!! To quote a totally different movie, the rest of my life's beginning will start with the following misery:

"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible.  And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, they will eventually begin to fade."

So I'm off, when this lay-off happens at work.. I'm going far, far away.. Arizona actually, I need to try something totally new. My motivation is pointless here and all I turn to is alcohol with my party friends and if you read my last blog I need to quit with it. Bad decisions come from poor drinking habits. :( Forgive this bummed and short blog, I'm just not feeling up to the discussion as I thought I would have been.

My Best Friend's Wedding...

From the Bachelorette Party to the big day, it was a celebration all around!!! :)

She was absolutely beautiful!!!! My best friend married the best man!!! :) Saturday was the wedding I had been anxious for and it was as fun as I had expected it to be. Some say weddings make you think twice about settling down and getting "family" ready. That couldn't be more true.. I celebrated with some excellent friends but couldn't help to be a little envious of the whole "married forever/ in love" vibe. Could I be changing my untameable ways?? lol.. One thing is for sure.. my drinking habits have now been put to a major hault!! #1 because I'm heavier than ever and the bridesmaid dress didn't help at all..lol and I didn't really start drinking until after all of the major wedding rituals but I paid heavily for it Sunday and Monday :( Beezy seemed happy with everything so I didn't have to regulate on any mis-steps of any of the vendors. It was an all around beautiful wedding and I couldn't be happier for the Vargas pair or make it the Vargas three plus Jaxon :)

Vegas Bachelorette Party

   The Happy Couple

Shots in Celebration :)

Movie Title Quote:  this one is for me of that night :)

"maybe there won't be marriage, maybe there won't be sex, but by God...there will be dancing"

John Tucker Must Die...

Went on the date from Hell... I met the dude in my office he was selling rubber stopper thingys, I really don't remember what he was selling I just know it was rubber. :) He was too cute and stayed for about an hour just chitt-chatting with me :) He was funny, single, no kids and independent (meaning: not living with momma). A man at 28 one would hope so :) He also had single friends, which was a plus and a half because I have single friends "so call ur friends to get with my friends and we could be friends" lol.. needed some comedy in this Post!! lol  Anyway, like I said many times before I have the biggest problem giving my number out, so when he asked, I gave it to him, plus he was cute and I didn't mind a call from him at all.. :) He was also real quick to ask me out, I couldn't go out that night so he switched his plans for the next night and asked to take me to dinner. I was immediately taken back when he so bluntly picked the restaurant and said he was picking me up.. For starters, I always drive myself on first dates.. (just incase I need to escape quickly) but for some reason I decided to let my guard down and say ok. As for the restaurant, he didn't even ask if I liked sushi or didn't even give me to option to pick a place. I'm so used to the control I was totally hesitant, but I agreed. (I love sushi BTW) Now the date...

He was grouchy when he arrived.. I guess some lady cut him off on his way over and he just kept harping over it.. which made the ride and initial hello awkward. We get to the restaurant and I had been there before with my bestie and liked it so it was cool.. J I recommend it!! tons of CUTE MEN It’s called Mikan off of Pearl in Redlands… look it up.. they have a cool nightlife lounge two story restaurant J Anyway, he was dressed super formal for a date.. he had on slacks, a black  button up and dress shoes… very clean and he looked wedding ready..LMAO.. it was too much for sushi, but to each their own.  I had dark jeans, a scoop neck top and my white military jacket on with curly hair and my new shoes.. I looked good damn it!! LOL  He didn’t seem to think so and he made it known… the ass said that my outfit was cute and very trendy but that my shirt may have been a bit too low cut… They’re called BOOBS!!! Apparently he’s never seen them before and expects his “WOMAN” (and he used this term a lot throughout the date) to wear hijabs and burqas.. lol.. but really "who the hell does he think he is".. (and I used that phrase often throughout this bogusness) Food was good.. conversation sucked, and he kept bringing up his ex and the reasons they weren’t together anymore… really?? Oh and it was all her fault.. I’m sure “Hitler” had nothing to do with it. I couldn’t stand his arrogance and he had anger issues.. it was a total warp from when he was in the office talking to me.. or maybe I had just been more mesmerized by his smile and didn’t notice his douchebag tendencies then. Either way.. I ended the date with a “are you kidding me? This is the worst date I’ve ever been on, you are a douchebag, if this act is serious, and I wish you luck but this date is over.” He paid the tab (thank God I didn’t get stuck with the bill again) and apologized and asked if could make it up to me?? I said thanks for dinner, but no thanks. I’ll get a ride home. And my friend came to my rescue as always!! J… When a date is so bad that you are facebooking mid conversation, there is definitely a problem!! Needless to say, I may be done with dating for a while.. too many dumb-dumbs, not enough energy!! lol

Movie Title Quote: (you get 2 today because this blog is worth it :))

for him:

"I'd hit him with my car if he wouldn't make body casts a fashion statement."

for me:

"I wish it could just be simple, like a retro-pop song 'I want you to want me.' Boom. End of Story. We all live happily ever after. But its never really like that, is it?"

Confessions of a Shopoholic...

So it's Sunday and this weekend has been the most I've rested in quite a while!!! So glad because it was well needed. If you've read my last post, I've been pretty down in the dumps on the health kick and getting the mind right. I took a break from my normal "retail therapy" sessions to save, save, save but Friday I did some 'soul shopping', I mean, searching..lol and I swear it made me feel 100% happier. There is something about shoes that just does it for me. I totally get something out of them. When I'm feeling bad I definitely like to treat myself, clothes never look good, food just adds to the chubb, SHOES.. they always fit!!!! Meet my new loves.. Inexpensive but cute to boot :)

Joey

Madden GirlSoda :)

Movie Title quote: "You know that thing when you see someone cute and he smiles and your heart kind of goes like warm butter sliding down hot toast? Well that's what it's like when I see a store. Only it's better."

Point Break...

Free your mind and the rest will follow!!! Song lyrics I'm sure I'll try to live by for as long as I let myself.
 I'm back and plan to keep up with my thoughts and frustrations of my everday on this wonderful vice until I can't anymore :)
What's new?
WORK:The fabulous job that I hold is going in the dumps. When you put your eggs all in one basket and assume your customer that carried your company for years isn't in the business for business you'll probably end up where my firm has ended. It's just that too.. ENDED.. they are going to close down our Perris Office because we lost the Edison Contract.. our money maker is no longer shaking for the big bucks. Although I am still offered a position with the company when lay-offs occur, a daily drive to Costa Mesa is not in my near future. So on to the next, after, I'm thinking the 15th of June. My work ethic, however, has me sticking it out till the end with the big boss and all of the loyal dogs who are wishing and hoping and praying that something comes our way. This hold up is not without hard work and sales.. I have been marketing the heck out of our company to any and all I can find and think of but that work will end up going to Costa Mesa anyway so I'm working my butt off to still lose my job :(
TRAVEL: So after all of my travel plans.. I have met the majority of them.. Vegas was a hoot two weeks ago for my besties bachelorette party. But then again when is Vegas not? Florida is still on schedule for late August, although the Boo I was anticipating a visit with may not be who I go to see, either way I'll have the greatest time I'm sure. Exhausted a million from the weekend adventures also... Weddings start as of next weekend. The Bestie is tying the knot Saturday the 11th.. I get a weekend off then the 25th is another wedding. Angel/Dodger Game the weekend after (woohoo GO ANGELS!!) and yet another wedding the following weekend... Should I be catching a hint on this? Three weddings within a 2 month period and another in August.. Lordy, Lordy that's a ton of shopping ahead of me :)
HEALTH: I have been far from top notch!! I can't seem to shake this ickness, it's been about a month and what I thought was allergies has now amplified to flu-like symptoms, anxiety that feels like monster pressure on my stomach and an appetite to kill. I love food, and that isn't new but I feel now that I am feeding myself to clear the ickyness I've been feeling. Like the food helps me forget about it.. Maybe depression? but I'm not a sad person. I think it's all just stress induced but I can't shake it.... drinking is not even an option and I haven't had an urge to anyhow, sleeping has been my no food, no worry vice during the week. I have way too many obligations on the weekend that I pick myself up every weekend to get things done. I don't know, I'm quite train wreck these days.
FAMILY: What would I do without them? My youngest sister, who despises me every other day unless she wants something, is graduating from High School next week. I am super proud even though it's another activity that takes away from my resting.. lol. We just celebrated my Pop's 50th Bday and threw a little surprise party for him at the 'rent's house, he had no clue. It was a success and I'm majorly surprised that we (big mouths) kept it a secret for so long!! :) We also had a huge shindig for my Grandpa's 70th bday party. I was bad company, I napped in my Gma's room the majority of the party, but at least I wasn't outside adding to my sickness with alcohol and the cold :)
LOVE:  I  need to work on cutting the "Caspers" (my ghosts from the past) I have a hard time ending all ties with the Ex's. Most would say that they commend the fact that I stay close with most of them, but really I'm not trying to go backwards. As Liz-ard says.. "I lost my rearview mirror". To be completely honest, there is only one man right now that I care about whole-heartedly but the two of us can't seem to get it together. I don't know if I'm keeping him around for my own comfort, or if he is keeping me around if nobody better comes along??? But that's a BLOG all on it's own :) Motto for this one:  boyfriend vs. pet, I'd take a puppy anyday!! LOL.. really though, my time is my time and when I do finally meet the man I feel I can't live without, I'll blog all about it :)

Enough tonight.... Let's end with the Movie Title quote :)
"Johnny's got his own demons...Don't ya Johnny?"